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My Faith Journey To Rome
Posted On 02/22/2009 22:25:55 by bogey412
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I want to discuss with you my feelings in church today. Perhaps when you call tonight we can. Ok? I really didn't like it. Feel free to edit what you will. I am not a great writer but I guess I get the point across. I hope you are having a wonderful day. It is getting ready to rain here. This has been a week of ups and downs personally for me. I have believed my entire life that I was baptized in the Catholic church. I always felt that I had that to hold on to. I found out this week that isn't the case. In trying to renew my faith I had some homework to do. I found out that I have never been baptized. My heart sank. I talked with a few close friends and they assured me that Christ will still welcome me home. I felt a little stupid because I knew in my heart he would. I just have some extra things to do in order to get there. I have been doing some homework on the Catholic faith and trying to learn some prayers. A good friend suggested the Rosary I looked it up and I am learning it. I will be making an appointment this week with the church to discuss my process of becoming a Catholic. I am so excited to welcome the lord in my heart and home. I will be learning the meaning of Lent this week and plan to attend mass on Wednesday. I attended mass this Sunday. I woke up late and couldn't make it to my regular church. So I went to a different church and took a friend with me. She was raised a Catholic and I thought she could give me some pointers. As mass began I listened to her and the others around me. I am not sure if it was the surroundings, me or my friend but every time she said a prayer it seemed as if a robot was saying it. I didn't like the way I was feeling toward her. When I go to my church you could feel the love of the Lord right there in everyone you encountered. This Sunday I felt his spirit in me saying this is not the way. He was telling me to love him freely. I'm not sure but I think the Lord wants us to love him unconditionally with our whole heart, mind and body. Not to recite something because that is what you learned to do. You need to feel it and believe it with all that you are. I will be returning to my church Wednesday for mass. I love the free feeling I get when I am there. I feel him working in me, showing me and guiding me to him. It is a feeling of warmth and love that I haven't encountered for a very long time. I have to think long and hard over the next few days about the meaning of Lent. There are many things that I need to change in the next 40 days. I know with Gods help I will succeed. I feel so strong and finding my faith has been a true blessing. My daughter says I smile so much more now. I feel free and not so guarded. I know that the lord is working with me in many areas. I have a lot of work to do I know, but I feel so good doing it.
Tags: Becoming A Catholic
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